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Saturday, March 16, 2013

The Confession

I'm Gay. I have to say this as the main point why I've created a blog.

The revelation and reflection that I want to remind myself has been a challenge to speak up and to live rightfully just any normal sexes would be,  That's because we live in a country where belief is strongly bonded with Catholicism and hypocrisy.

I've been living a lie for the last time I knew I was. People, relatives has been asking me "why I don't have a girlfriend" when will I "marry". all kinds of questions that I think to question my sexuality.  " He has a lot of priorities" "Hes too preoccupied with his life!" "defensively replied by my mum's at the conversation" then I slowly shied away.

I don't know why people think that 20+ is the best age to get marry! I don't get it. The fact that you only had a few years building your career and you think its already the best time to get tied up? Why cant people think that the best time to settle is when you really get over with being single. When you have enough to sustain another life or capabilities to move out w/o burdening your parents.

Getting married or having a girlfriend is a very sensitive topic in my family. I guess that's why my 3 brothers all got married. We're not allowed to talk to any girls or open any opinion or else you will be opposed. that's why my clever brothers had their girlfriends pregnant. they think that that's the only way they can get out of those rules.

Now the focus is on me,

15 years ago, I thought I'm not normal. I never felt anything special or so called "Crush" to anyone opposite. I don't feel any emotions toward sexes. until my family moved to the province due to health and business reasons. That's where I grew up. It was in my sophomore year  that I fell in love with a classmate. his name is Royce. He's tall lean and the most loudest of my classmates, he's intelligent but just like any other boys he doesn't put it on good use. He used to tease me with being thin and weakly, he used to make fun of my group being the studious and cowardly. That's how it all all started then the roller coaster ride started to run.

I've been waiting for the right time to write about this. I told myself that I will write whatever comes to my mind, at the most relax state as possible.

To cut this shorts, I would write all my sentiments that require my own opinions posted.

1 comment:

  1. Looking forward to the details of that roller coaster ride. And how you survived of course.